Sunday, December 21, 2008
the only word i can tell you is is thanks...
your presence..
is the best present...
from you...
it pains deeply into me...
to see you in this way...
its just the matter of hearts...
which i am helpless about..
i never though i would continue writing...
this part...
and on...
when you say you did like me..
but only as a friend...
my world crash..
just did not know..
wat to do..
but to continue acting as if i am happy...
but surely..
being with you is the best contentment i have..
i guess i cant ask more than that...
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sHaRiLyN LiM winks
at |11:21 PM|
Friday, December 19, 2008
the wind of words..
whisper into my ears...
and told me you are sad..
it caught me by surprise..
i know you hold her dear...
i wonder..
why things turn out this way..
that was the work of the fate's wand..
another swish...
i saw the past...
as if it has never did pass...
time has pass..
like the water flow...
the flowers, have grow..
ur phone rang..
but my words choke..
like lock in my throat..
it wasn't like before..
i took a step back...
it was a fact..
it can never be like before..
i still held on to the empty promise..
that was kept in the treasure of my heart..
someone said..
you must be a great guy...
like the clouds...
for me to fall deep into you..
then she must be a greater girl..
like the sea..
to make you fall even deeper into her..
maybe..
love was just blind...
just like..
the 3 blind mice..
it was just the game of being nice..
i truly hope..
fate does not play you..
return the key to her heart..
so you can be happy and well..
that is the wish i make this year...
simply just for you..
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sHaRiLyN LiM winks
at |8:04 PM|
Thursday, August 14, 2008
since the day the truth was out,
i realise how foolish i was,
to hold on to that glimpse of hope,
that exist as a mirage in the desert.
it destryoed my day and night,
with only darkness settling in,
i had try with all my might,
to get i want,
but since this is fated,
just like the sun never meets the moon,
you will never be mine.
i am letting it all go,
in the freedom of the blowing wind.
i no longer walk side by side with you,
leaving my footprints by yours,
my existance only live in the past,
i will stand by you like the stars in the sky,
so near yet so far.
all i am keeping in my heart,
is the memories we had once shared,
you might have forgotten it long ago,
but it has engraved it in my book of heart.
that promise we made,
is not fulfilled,
it will never be fulfilled either,
locked in the treasure chest of heart,
only you can unlock it,
till then it will be an empty promise you had made.
now i can only shower you with my blessings,
just like the waterfall,
endless of it.
i hope not only you are able to bring her happiness,
but also she bringing it to you,
making it a perfect clap.
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sHaRiLyN LiM winks
at |8:34 PM|
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
guess the truth is out...
and i am suppose to accept the truth...
the girl is not me..
pain sithe only word tat can describe my feeling now...
when i open up ur blog...
the 1st time i saw was a picture of you and her...
and all the sweet things you had done...
guess all along it was my wishful thinkings...
thansk for dashing all my hopes...
guess it is really the time to let it go...
i have said so many times not to let meself get hurt...
but once again i am hurt...
thanks for pulling me back to the reality...
and all i can say is...
she is indeed bette den me...
happy?
i give you my blessing...
and will only stay by ur side as a gurdian angel...
an unseen one...
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sHaRiLyN LiM winks
at |5:57 AM|
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
today marks poly 50..i saw you ran...
b4 that, we met a few times, but never get to say hi...
even until i left, we still did not say hi...
bad enough?
guess, i caught your attention quite a number of times, by 1st going to clubhouse...
walking pass you when you are abt to take a picture...
next was, when i went to the washroom...
the, i caught more of ur attention...
victor, push me in the trolley...
u saw, i saw you too,
our expressions?
i felt pain,
u look down,
alcina saw everything...
i did not act sad,
i had my mask on...
jsut like it was...
i wanted you to see the happy me, the way i was...
as you have knew me...
i did not want you to know i was in pain...
i became high,
i started acting someone that wasnt me at all...
the race started,
i cheered loudly for my team,
yet silently in my heart,
i was cheering for you...
i await for you to run pass...
i wanted to cheer outloud..
but controlled myself...
then i tortured myself, by aiding everyone...only to see you once again,
we were running the final lap...
i ran too with my junior...
that was kind of an excuse...
the true reason..
not to catch your attention...
but to tell myself,
once i get to the finishing line,
it marks tht i am finish with you...
did it?
was the question i am asking now...
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sHaRiLyN LiM winks
at |7:14 PM|
Monday, July 21, 2008
Part 7:
it was just a sweet from me to you,
yet i think i saw it more than a sweet,
as i see you more that a friend to me.
unconsciously meeting you allowed the wound open,
making me consciously knowing,
i had never let it heal at all,
why am i still holding on?
i deeply questioned myself,
why wont i let it go?
i flooded my ears with music,
which became the switch to my tears,
before i knew,
tears flowed just like the rain,
once again i felt the pain.
i felt like screaming all out,
but i couldn't,
gracefully i attempted to danced my feelings out,
guess i failed to do so,
but that was the only avenue i could think,
all the pain are trapped in my heart cage,
will this piece of un-bloomed love wilt?
when will i let it go?
when will i free myself from all this unnecessary pain?
when will u return my longing heart to me?
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sHaRiLyN LiM winks
at |3:06 PM|
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Part 6:
Where were you when I needed you the most?
In darkness, I pray that you will be there,
Just there for me to know you care.
The long tortuous wait, tortured me silently,
Disappointed was the word that said my feelings.
I cheated my brain with paints of fake happiness,
But fate didn’t let me go, it tore the paint abruptly,
Leaving me alone in a sinking ship.
Fate crossed our paths, not once but thrice,
Placing me in 3 different situations,
Leaving me feeling so helpless and useless.
But all 3 times,
It told a similar story.
3 different situations,
One was just to look at you, and seeing you leave,
Two was to let me let me brush your shoulder again once more,
Three was to take a glance of you and walk passed.
All three told a same story.
It was to let you go,
From those junctions on,
It had clearly state,
That our fate was meant to be short and sweet,
We are fated to walk the different walks of life.
We collided into each other only by chance.
So what are my thoughts now?
How I just wish it was so easy to ask you for my heart back.
When will you return it back to me?
So I can alone once more…
And move on in life.
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sHaRiLyN LiM winks
at |8:28 PM|
